四十三，

如果不是曾見證過美麗，我們不會如此厭惡醜陋；倘若不曾飽經滄桑，我們也不會如此渴望寧靜。

這算是廣告時間：

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pP3-pzpiAyQ

這段視頻我看過至少三千次，看了會哭的。這位指揮的老兄Goran Bregovic也就是這曲子的作曲家，是我的偶像之一。過去在歐洲長住，常追著他跑。就像一個毒癮患者渴望吸食鴉片那樣，這類風花雪月的東西帶給我莫大安慰。所謂喜極而泣，也許就是這種感覺。許多東西實在太美了，美到讓人真捨不得老去，捨不得有一天得跟這個美麗世界告別。除了淚水相贈，還能如何表達這樣一種莫大的快樂？

我常感覺，要不是有這樣的快樂，我能懂得悲傷嗎？倒過來說也一樣，悲歡就像一對雙胞胎，有此必有彼，此有多深，彼就有多深。

Kahlil Gibran如是說：

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

你的歡樂，是你卸下面具的憂傷。

你的歡笑聲洶湧而出的那口井，也往往裝滿了你的眼淚。

難道不是這樣嗎？

鐫刻在你身上的憂傷越深，你能擁有的快樂也越多。

盛裝你的美酒的那只杯子，不也就是陶匠爐火中鍛煉過的那一只嗎？

撫慰你心靈的琵琶，不正是被小刀掏削鏤空的那塊木頭嗎？

當你歡樂時，深深察看你的內心，你會發現，唯有那些曾讓你悲傷的東西正給你快樂。

悲傷時，不妨再度琢磨你的心，你會發現，你其實正為那些曾給你快樂的東西哭泣。

你們之中有人說，「樂大於悲」。有些人則說，「不，悲大於樂。」

但我跟你們說，悲歡不可分。

他們結伴同來，當一個與你獨坐桌旁，別忘了，另一個正在你床上酣睡呢。